don't really know what to think. i see and hear you do these things and i don't know how to feel. some of the things you tell me do my head in. i can't help but feel jealousy and there is nothing i can do. i get so uncomfortable. i don't want to loose you as a friend, as one of those important people in my life. 'cause you have helped so much. it's time to let go before i start to think, feel, hurt too much. even though that is partially what is happening already. there's apart of me that thinks you really wouldn't care, which makes it more confusing.
am i in denial? or am i just scared of being alone?
bring me vodka and iced tea please.